1 /5 Abigail McCullars: i’m not naming any names in these next few moments. there is a church i used to go to that was always there for me. they always listened to me and helped me and i trusted this church with everything. i’ve never been able to find a good church. i’ve gone from church to church since moving out here. but recently rumors have been going out about me and my family. these said rumors started at this church and has recently been brought to mine and my mom’s attention.
my mom simply said that she feels i’m being bullied in this case once again due to my past with other bullies. We ended it with just that. i communicated with someone at the church saying i would step down from playing in the worship team and not come as much on wednesday but i would still like to go to events and church camp as it is my last year ever to go.
this quickly turned on me. j was told i can not go cause “they are worried about the bullying.” In most cases i would understand but in this case i see favoritism. they said they are very much against bullying yet i have to stay home while this “bully” gets to go to camp. for me and my mom, we both agree this is unfair. i have been apart of this church almost four years now. i have played drums, done fundraisers, helped a lot with people, and cleaned a lot before the new leaders came.
i was sad when i heard the old leaders were leaving but i grew very close with the new ones. i trusted them so so so much. but i don’t know about that anymore. i feel hurt and betrayed. last year a few people got to go and the leaders knew about the same thing they have that is suspected with me. so what did i do? even if this rumor was true this is very wrong.
my mom got in contact with the main pastor and had a talk with him. she then goes to say he was very rude and didn’t let her talk and said she was in the wrong the whole call. we just wanted to figure out why this is happening but it made things worse on our ends. he goes to say nobody gets 100% good care in the church and that if my mom were to go to the church more then things would’ve gone better. this was disgusting to hear that a pastor would say this stuff to my mom.
this is where we leave off. i’m sorry but i’ve lost trust in churches i’ve lost trust in these people and they hurt me more then i would’ve ever seen happen. i didn’t do anything to them but i get this kind of hate. a sin is a sin. and how they treated me was ungodly.
i have always wanted to grow up in a church and one day bring my kids to said church and have them grow up in a great community of people and i always thought this was the church. i suppose i was wrong.
